Fact about Love...

Love always makes me wonders....
and unpredictable girls make me wonders even more...
How do you know, if a girl likes you or not...?
they dont tell you directly that they likes you or what..
but then they do things that makes you thinks: [hhhmmm....]

guess working at a place with no close friends make me feel lonely, and i'm sure it makes most people feel the same too..
and this loneliness makes me feel that i need someone, someone to care about, someone who will care about me.

and, yea, this loneliness is still making thinks alot about Loves... x.x
hope i could figure it out soon....

Be Bad....

It is so true, about the phrase the one you love the most,
hurts you the most, especially if you experience it yourself~

forgot how long it have taken, just to heal the wound,
no, it is not healed yet, as how i sees it.
this is what's that been holding me back..

lots of people say, girls go for bad guys, and good guys will never get any good girls.
seems that i must admit, it is kinda true.
no matter how good you are, they just had something to complain about,
and yea, they really tend to fell for bad guys.
so, does this means i gotta be a bad guy to be with someone...?
but i think most probably it won't happen... or i might turn bad and never be, who i used to be...

told myself before, and vowing that i would do anything, for the one i wanted to be with...
yet.... where's this promise that i've made gone to...?
seems that i forgot how i did it last time...
doing things, for someone, for no particular reason,
just because, i liked her...

there's no such person around me now, that'll make me make those moves again...
no, wait, there is, just that either they are not around, or i know i shouldn't be acting that way again.

used to think that i've fallen for someone, yet, thinking back and comparing, well, maybe not...
is it that my heart for her wasn't so strong...?
or was it that there are no chance for me to do, what i could have done, just for her...?
who knows.... even i don't know...?

is and was thinking about Loves too much lately, maybe because boredom brings out loneliness, and pushing me hard to find someone to spend time and money with...?
most probably..... and yea, still no solution or cure for it yet.....

It is Time...

It is here, and this is very crucial....
The Time has come...
Wish me Luck...

Wishes.

For now, i really don't have any demands for things,
because there are nothing else i should ask for.

the only thing that i wished for, for now, is that
things will be worked out, for both of us.
really Really wishes that She could take another step, into my world, into my life,
deeper, closer....

come to think about it, how silly i am, posting about this wish,
knowing that she wont know about, and yet i posted about this..

we weren't even close before, and still, we ain't that close now either,
but somehow, we got closer...
and yes, i DO wish it'll get much more closer....

maybe because i'm selfish, i needed someone, and i wished that she could be that particular someone..
but life must be fair, and i shouldn't be forcing anyone,
i know, in the deepest part of my heart, that nothing will be worked out,
if she don't need anyone right now...
relationship is a mutual thing, it only will run smooth if there are mutual feeling toward each other..
i want that relationship to run smooth, and lengthy...

i need to know the answer...
and i don't know how and when i can get the answer..
only time will show to me, the answer to all my question,
that has been frequently running through my mind...

Needed to be Loved?

This actually had been bothering me for some time....
The Feeling of needed to be loved, yea, you heard me right...
dont know whether is lasting Boredom in the nights that haunts me,
or the Devil inside my mind affecting me....
i have this strong urge to date someone.....


A recent Chit-chat makes it even worst, makes me think about myself,
Whether i am good enough to start a relationship...
Whether i'm ready to start a new one or still cling on to the last one...
Whether i deserved to start a new one, whether i deserved to love again....

Many thoughts are on my mind, and it's getting worst every night...
will i be able to step out of it....?


A particular 'someone' has been on my mind quite often recently...
i wonder if i still know how to do it again...
whether i'm still able to capture people's Heart.....