Be Bad....

It is so true, about the phrase the one you love the most,
hurts you the most, especially if you experience it yourself~

forgot how long it have taken, just to heal the wound,
no, it is not healed yet, as how i sees it.
this is what's that been holding me back..

lots of people say, girls go for bad guys, and good guys will never get any good girls.
seems that i must admit, it is kinda true.
no matter how good you are, they just had something to complain about,
and yea, they really tend to fell for bad guys.
so, does this means i gotta be a bad guy to be with someone...?
but i think most probably it won't happen... or i might turn bad and never be, who i used to be...

told myself before, and vowing that i would do anything, for the one i wanted to be with...
yet.... where's this promise that i've made gone to...?
seems that i forgot how i did it last time...
doing things, for someone, for no particular reason,
just because, i liked her...

there's no such person around me now, that'll make me make those moves again...
no, wait, there is, just that either they are not around, or i know i shouldn't be acting that way again.

used to think that i've fallen for someone, yet, thinking back and comparing, well, maybe not...
is it that my heart for her wasn't so strong...?
or was it that there are no chance for me to do, what i could have done, just for her...?
who knows.... even i don't know...?

is and was thinking about Loves too much lately, maybe because boredom brings out loneliness, and pushing me hard to find someone to spend time and money with...?
most probably..... and yea, still no solution or cure for it yet.....